As a child I
enjoyed anything that involved creating. I also believed strongly
in magic, and would pray every night...."God, please make me magic". Silly
thoughts that
children have.
But when I was a preteen, there was a loss that occurred, which effected me so
deeply that
I shifted from a happy little girl, to a brooding moody and withdrawn young
lady. Going
through young adulthood to true adulthood, this sadness still prevailed.
Some time after the year 2000, I can't remember exactly what caused the shift, I
realized
that the way I'd 'always' felt, was caused by my history, and that it wasn't
because "that's
who I was". For some reason that I cannot explain, I gave myself the freedom to
remember
the time of my life that made me the happiest. When I was a child. When
everything was
worry free, and I still wanted to be magic.
This is when I picked up my art with a new intention, and a new motivation. I
spent much
time trying to fit into what I liked which was the magical and fantasy art
world, but instead
of immediately following my heart, I tried to follow everyone else's hearts. I
wanted to
feel happy and create something beautiful and tried for a few years to do this.
But then in 2004, I had yet another shift. I realized that even though I was
exploring my
creative side, I had put myself into a box that was created by the retail market
trends. So
for my birthday which was in May, the present that I gave myself was that I
would NEVER
create anything again that didn't come completely from my heart. And that is
when the
official Chibis were born.
I promised myself that I would not be swayed by what makes money. I would not
allow
myself to become so caught up in the thrill of the sale that I would forget the
main reason
that I created. I also vowed that I would hold myself to the highest standards,
remembering
that it is people, real living people, that are allowing me to pursue this
journey, and to appreciate
each and every person that came into my life through this creative endeavor.
But being that I'm NOT magic, and only human, I don't always succeed in keeping
my affirmations.
I find myself sometimes feeling envious, insecure, selfish and guarded. But I
remember my promise,
and do my best to work through these feelings internally, and not let it seep
out.
Chibis are a symbolic icon of my promise to myself, to love others even when
it's not easy.
They are my way of sharing freedom with others to feel safe and secure, and
light-hearted.
But mostly they are my way of trying to spread a feeling of appreciation for one
another and
putting others feelings before your own when it's the best thing for them. They
are my way
of trying to send a message. That all of us will be much happier when we just
giggle, lighten our
hearts, drop the judgmental bug, and love each other with a love that is much
larger than
ourselves.
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